beach day #beach #springbreak (at Northside HB Pier)
I feel the weight of education and the future on my shoulders, l the pressure of debt and failure. I keep worrying about how I can help when I can’t even save my self. I hope I find an answer to this problem soon or I might be too far gone to save.
sometimes I feel hopeless, like my life is never going to get better. Im doing my best to help everyone and Im the one who needs help. Then you know what… I keep going anyways, not sure of the road ahead. I may not know where Im going but I cannot stay here. Quitting will not do me any good. I will loose if I sit here and do nothing, and if I am going to loose, it would be because I tried, not because I gave up.
I tried making a change this summer, I saw an opportunity and I took it. I failed, Im not awesome enough. So now back do the drawing board. Make myself better and try again, and I’m gonna keep trying because if I don’t follow my dream then what is point. I will not stop. I will never surrender my dreams.
I’m scared & I’m nervous, & for good reasons. I met someone awesome but I have this feeling that things can go very wrong if I’m not careful. The things is… She is one option, I don’t have to do anything if I don’t want to, unfortunately, I have this mentality to see what might happen & right now all I see in her is trouble. Bob marley once said everyone will hurt you and some people are worth getting hurt for. The real question is if she is one of those people? God help me if she isn’t